i don't want to cry...

i don't want to cry...
i don't want people to know that i'm crying...
i don't want to be weak in front of people...
i don't want to lose in challenging with my own self...
i don't want to give up before fight...
i don't want to lose hope from His mercies...

i want to smile all the time...
i want people to know that i'm smiling...
i want to be strong in front of people...
i want to success in challenging with my own self...
i want to try hard before surrender...
i want to trust and hope for His mercies...

Hasbiya Allahu ni'mal wakeel, ni'mal mawla wa ni'man naseer...

When your heart feels uneasy...

There are times we feel uneasy in heart
There are times we feel empty inside
There are times we feel so stress
There are times we feel so depress
There are times we have too much worries
And there are times we have lots of uncertainties

There are days we feel lonely
There are days we feel guilty
There are days we feel messy
There are days we feel unhappy
And there are days we feel gloomy

Then
Repent to Allah from all sins
Istighfar a lot to be soul clean
Seek forgiveness from Allah for what we forget
For all the past mistakes we did, we regret
Seek forgiveness from Allah for all wrong doing
Then, ask from Allah His blessings

Do as much as goodness
Forbid the evilness
Have strong faith in Allah and His Prophet steadfastly
Hold al-Quran in your life firmly
Enliven the Prophet Sunnah
To be a great ummah
Practices ad-deen everyday
May happiness will be yours always

O Allah!
I do not deserve for Your blessings of Jannah
Nor I have the strength to withstand Your torment of hellfire
Thus, Accept my Tawbah and grant me forgiveness for all my sins
Verily You are the Forgiver of great sins

الهي لست للفردوس اهلا
ولا أقوى على نار الجحيم
فهب لي توبة واغفر ذنوبي
فإنك غافر الذنب العظيم